March 23, 2019
Jinan, China
I feel behind, I had every traif for greatness. Smart, pretty (to some standards), likable, ambitious, and all and all pretty brilliant. Yet I feel like I have been met with silent seasons and struggle seasons, while others are advancing with status, career, money, spouses, and thriving friend groups. Sometimes I wonder, am I not worthy or deserving of the same things?
It is hard for me to stand firmly in the Lord, because I feel forgotten and unimportant. Lord, please help me to find peace in the unknown. Lord help me to seek you even without typical success. Please show me that resting in You is better than money or a title.
Thank you Lord for the pruning season and the hardness of it all…