I miss you more than I can ever promise. Nothing is the same without you…since before you left I wanted to go too…meaning I wanted to die…I am trying so hard dad. I live in China now, trying all I can to find peace and happiness. I am sorry to say that I’m not there yet. Sometimes I want to give up and say fuck it all and join you in the sky, wherever you are.
Dad it’s so hard…I have felt such discrimination since I have been here. I want to give up but I am trying as hard as I can, to keep going and keep pushing.
My heart is broken, daddy. I hope you can give me the strength and courage to keep going and pushing. I love you, I love you, I miss you – forever.