April 14th, 2019 Rizhao, China It just keeps fucking raining over and over and over. Why won’t it stop? I’ve moved three times in the last year. Put in notice with a job, then that same job fired me. Started a new job. Dad died so I had the bright FUCKING idea to move to…
Write the vision and make it plain. I want my body to feel like home.I want it to feel like mine. I want to know that I know that I know that I will be okay and find the people and the things that are meant for me, and that I am meant for,…
Dear Daddy, I miss you more than I can ever promise. Nothing is the same without you...since before you left I wanted to go too...meaning I wanted to die...I am trying so hard dad. I live in China now, trying all I can to find peace and happiness. I am sorry to say that I’m…
March 23, 2019 Jinan, China I feel behind, I had every traif for greatness. Smart, pretty (to some standards), likable, ambitious, and all and all pretty brilliant. Yet I feel like I have been met with silent seasons and struggle seasons, while others are advancing with status, career, money, spouses, and thriving friend groups. Sometimes…
